Well my ex girlfriend and I were dating on and off for about 2 years. She doesn't live in this city so we decided to break up. It was about an hour drive to see one another. It was great we had fun and I predicted nothing would go wrong. Around jully 28th she called me up saying she had to come to a funeral in Indiana and was going to stop by Louisville on the way up. So I was like ok cool this is going to be fun. so we go out get something to eat I take her to the local park and we chill and talk for like 4 hours just watching the day go by.
Eventually we got back to my house and we just sat and watched some tv drank a few beers and were chillin when all of the sudden we started making out bla bla bla happend and next thing you know we were in intercourse. Me being a completly retard decided to have sex without a condom (she even agreed to it ). So we were finished and all I take her back to her grandpa's place (in Louisville) and that was it.
I get a call from her today and I decided not to pick up because I didn't want to talk any more to her because we were threw and done. She then called about 4 hours later and left a insane message on my voicemail saying that she was pregnant and the kid was mine I was like wtf mad as hell. We talked for a while and she is not calling me back until tommorow wanting me to have some time to cool off. So my dad is in Paris and I called him and told him about the situation and he wasn't to thrilled (which I can understand why.) So he said call my mom lol I'm going to get my ass beat tommorow lol. Anyways I called my mom and she didn't pick up the phone so I went over to her house.
We then had a long conversation about it which honestly was the best conversation I ever had with my mom. She told me not to marry her just because your the kids father. and such. My ex girlfirned was on drugs and I thought it was pot but it turned out to be much worse. She is in rehab and I think this whole thing is escalated because I didn't send her 50 bucks like she asked for who knows what. My problem is not knowing for real if the kid is mine or not.
Tommorow I'm going to talk to my ex and say we need to get a test to find out if I'm the father so I can forget about all of this or figure something out with child support. This comes up to my mind the options I have.
Abortion
adoption
or child support
Those three things have been going threw my head all day ever since I have first found out about this. I am so confused on what I should do that I am not even mad. I'm probabbly not mad becuase I've never been threw this before and do not know how to react to something like this wether to be upset or happy or sad or what ever. If you all have any thoughts on what I should do please help me it would be grately appreciated. I know I fucked up and that's what irritates me is me fucking up to get to this point. Granted this whole thing is an awakening to me. I have a dead end job right now just dicking around with the pay checks until I find something else in which I can get an apt. and such.
On the other hand my mom said that I won't have to worry about the child support because the said they would help me out which is great. She is a real estate agent and my dad is a doctor. With that being said I just agreed to it and let it drop. I just don't want them paying for my fuck up and making them granparents. I just completly fucked my life up and it sucks I know what is going to happen and I am a complete and total fucking moron to have sex without a condom that II should be shot for that idiotic mistake and such. I'm catholic and this is going to prob put me in hell but well there is a lot of other things I am worrying about that going to hell.
If you have any thoughts on this please try and help me out to the best of your ability. Thank you bf2s for reading and I highly appreciate it.
Eventually we got back to my house and we just sat and watched some tv drank a few beers and were chillin when all of the sudden we started making out bla bla bla happend and next thing you know we were in intercourse. Me being a completly retard decided to have sex without a condom (she even agreed to it ). So we were finished and all I take her back to her grandpa's place (in Louisville) and that was it.
I get a call from her today and I decided not to pick up because I didn't want to talk any more to her because we were threw and done. She then called about 4 hours later and left a insane message on my voicemail saying that she was pregnant and the kid was mine I was like wtf mad as hell. We talked for a while and she is not calling me back until tommorow wanting me to have some time to cool off. So my dad is in Paris and I called him and told him about the situation and he wasn't to thrilled (which I can understand why.) So he said call my mom lol I'm going to get my ass beat tommorow lol. Anyways I called my mom and she didn't pick up the phone so I went over to her house.
We then had a long conversation about it which honestly was the best conversation I ever had with my mom. She told me not to marry her just because your the kids father. and such. My ex girlfirned was on drugs and I thought it was pot but it turned out to be much worse. She is in rehab and I think this whole thing is escalated because I didn't send her 50 bucks like she asked for who knows what. My problem is not knowing for real if the kid is mine or not.
Tommorow I'm going to talk to my ex and say we need to get a test to find out if I'm the father so I can forget about all of this or figure something out with child support. This comes up to my mind the options I have.
Abortion
adoption
or child support
Those three things have been going threw my head all day ever since I have first found out about this. I am so confused on what I should do that I am not even mad. I'm probabbly not mad becuase I've never been threw this before and do not know how to react to something like this wether to be upset or happy or sad or what ever. If you all have any thoughts on what I should do please help me it would be grately appreciated. I know I fucked up and that's what irritates me is me fucking up to get to this point. Granted this whole thing is an awakening to me. I have a dead end job right now just dicking around with the pay checks until I find something else in which I can get an apt. and such.
On the other hand my mom said that I won't have to worry about the child support because the said they would help me out which is great. She is a real estate agent and my dad is a doctor. With that being said I just agreed to it and let it drop. I just don't want them paying for my fuck up and making them granparents. I just completly fucked my life up and it sucks I know what is going to happen and I am a complete and total fucking moron to have sex without a condom that II should be shot for that idiotic mistake and such. I'm catholic and this is going to prob put me in hell but well there is a lot of other things I am worrying about that going to hell.
If you have any thoughts on this please try and help me out to the best of your ability. Thank you bf2s for reading and I highly appreciate it.
