Well, first off my life right now is shitty.
How it got this way.
I served 8yrs and 1mo in the Marines, it was funny because all I could think about while I was in was becoming a civilian again and making it in this world. Now that I am one all I can think about is being back in a uniform.
I served one tour in Iraq and lost some friends and had some close calls. I left Iraq 1mo early to get out, I came home and everything seemed great. I got a job at Home Loan Center/Lending Tree in Irvine CA and thought it was all good... wrong. The other employees didn't like vulgar language and my dark sense of humor, I was let go even though I had placed in the top of my training group with my testing, inbound/outbound calls and having 2 loans getting ready to go into docs. They didn't feel that I was a good fit for the company.
I then worked as a bounce while looking for another job, all the while drinking. A lot. In the 2mo that I had been out of the Marines I had drank away all the money I had saved in Iraq. I was then offered a job at a Mortgage shop about 10min down the road from me.
This worked out great for awhile, I was making money and living it up. Nothing better then getting a $10k check on Friday. This went on for about 6mo, working my ass off the partying my ass off. I was living well beyond my means. Then the mortgage slump hit, I lost over $20k worth of loans that were going into docs, funding or people just didn't qualify. I had loans un-fund. I then started to bounce again while still doing loans just to make ends meet. I ended up leaving that company because they were trying to make us start doing shady loans, ie cut and paste to make it look like people were qualified for a loan. Some people can screw a person over with a smile on their face knowing that the person will loose their house in the next year.
I then was just bouncing, I had a 2 bedroom apartment an a 05 Altima that had all the bells and whistles. I had saved a bit of money so I tried to live off that while doing loans from home and doing security at a strip club. The club payed anywhere from $100-500 a night plus hourly.
I had my best friend at the time move into my spare room and everything seemed like it was working out. Then in June 07 my Grandmother died.
I had to fly back to Minnesota for 2 weeks and grieved with my family. The lose of my Grandmother destroyed me, I had always been her favorite grandchild and always spent at least 1 week a month at her house. When I got back to California I had a message saying I was let go from the strip club. I called to find out why and they said it was because I had missed too many shifts and that they were cutting back on the security staff.
I end up getting evicted from my apartment, my "best friend" bails out and leaves me with all the bills, I can't pay.
I move in with my current girlfriend and we sat down and took a look at all my debt and calculated it at over $30k. I let them repo my car and file bankruptcy.
I then get a job at a company that shall remain nameless, and set off making a life for us. We were still strapped for cash, on the budget we were negative at the end of the month. I then find a way to make money off the books.
I stole company product and sold it on ebay. I know, fucking stupid. Well, I get caught. I end up getting charged with 2nd degree burglary of a commercial building, grand theft by a employee(over $400) and receiving stolen property.
The trial ends up taking 6mo to conclude, note during this time I cannot pass a single background check because of pending charges all felonies.
I was given a break by the judge that saw my case because my regular judge was sick, she gave me 4mo home confinement and 3yrs informal probation and reduced all the felonies to misdemeanors.
I have now have only 45 days remaining on my home confinement, but don't have anything too look forward too. We are about to loose our apartment and our car and I still cannot pass a background check for any decent job.
I have thought about ending it almost everyday for the last 2 months, but I keep hoping their will be a light at the end of the tunnel.
K
How it got this way.
I served 8yrs and 1mo in the Marines, it was funny because all I could think about while I was in was becoming a civilian again and making it in this world. Now that I am one all I can think about is being back in a uniform.
I served one tour in Iraq and lost some friends and had some close calls. I left Iraq 1mo early to get out, I came home and everything seemed great. I got a job at Home Loan Center/Lending Tree in Irvine CA and thought it was all good... wrong. The other employees didn't like vulgar language and my dark sense of humor, I was let go even though I had placed in the top of my training group with my testing, inbound/outbound calls and having 2 loans getting ready to go into docs. They didn't feel that I was a good fit for the company.
I then worked as a bounce while looking for another job, all the while drinking. A lot. In the 2mo that I had been out of the Marines I had drank away all the money I had saved in Iraq. I was then offered a job at a Mortgage shop about 10min down the road from me.
This worked out great for awhile, I was making money and living it up. Nothing better then getting a $10k check on Friday. This went on for about 6mo, working my ass off the partying my ass off. I was living well beyond my means. Then the mortgage slump hit, I lost over $20k worth of loans that were going into docs, funding or people just didn't qualify. I had loans un-fund. I then started to bounce again while still doing loans just to make ends meet. I ended up leaving that company because they were trying to make us start doing shady loans, ie cut and paste to make it look like people were qualified for a loan. Some people can screw a person over with a smile on their face knowing that the person will loose their house in the next year.
I then was just bouncing, I had a 2 bedroom apartment an a 05 Altima that had all the bells and whistles. I had saved a bit of money so I tried to live off that while doing loans from home and doing security at a strip club. The club payed anywhere from $100-500 a night plus hourly.
I had my best friend at the time move into my spare room and everything seemed like it was working out. Then in June 07 my Grandmother died.
I had to fly back to Minnesota for 2 weeks and grieved with my family. The lose of my Grandmother destroyed me, I had always been her favorite grandchild and always spent at least 1 week a month at her house. When I got back to California I had a message saying I was let go from the strip club. I called to find out why and they said it was because I had missed too many shifts and that they were cutting back on the security staff.
I end up getting evicted from my apartment, my "best friend" bails out and leaves me with all the bills, I can't pay.
I move in with my current girlfriend and we sat down and took a look at all my debt and calculated it at over $30k. I let them repo my car and file bankruptcy.
I then get a job at a company that shall remain nameless, and set off making a life for us. We were still strapped for cash, on the budget we were negative at the end of the month. I then find a way to make money off the books.
I stole company product and sold it on ebay. I know, fucking stupid. Well, I get caught. I end up getting charged with 2nd degree burglary of a commercial building, grand theft by a employee(over $400) and receiving stolen property.
The trial ends up taking 6mo to conclude, note during this time I cannot pass a single background check because of pending charges all felonies.
I was given a break by the judge that saw my case because my regular judge was sick, she gave me 4mo home confinement and 3yrs informal probation and reduced all the felonies to misdemeanors.
I have now have only 45 days remaining on my home confinement, but don't have anything too look forward too. We are about to loose our apartment and our car and I still cannot pass a background check for any decent job.
I have thought about ending it almost everyday for the last 2 months, but I keep hoping their will be a light at the end of the tunnel.
K
