WARNING! this is a personal PERSONAL QUESTION from me that is long and possibly boring for you, but wanted to ask anyone willing to read and had some thoughts. I am asking here because some/alot of BF2s Forum members are one of my good sources of sound advice (yes im serious) and and ideas I never think of.
I posted on here about things going on with my girlfriend once before. Something new has come up, and I respect the BF2s community's intelligence (more so than alot of my IRL friends, actually) and wanted to get a few opinions. I have pretty much decided, but figure an oustide point of view would be inciteful. Here we go.
Ok, So I've dated this girl for about a year and a half, we rarely fought, and always talked our few fights out. There is very few things about her that I dislike, very minor things.
But recently, we broke up. We lived together almost a year, but she went to college. She wanted to move away from where we lived together, which , really is a crime filled, incredibly boring shithole. She also wants to travel alot. Maybe wants marriage, doesn't want kids, for a long time if ever.
We broke up because I was being an EMO filled negative minded turd. I realize that now. I made a few comments about how traveling costs money, and that I have a well paying, but not good, job that moving away from would be hard.
MY job pays $15 dollars an hour which for this rural area (shithole) is pretty good. Give you an idea, Rent is only $400 dollars a month.
Anyway, she assumed that I didn't want to leave the area or travel to far off places, her two biggest dreams. So she dumped me. But we have been talking through E-mails, and we both have a hard time communicating by talking verbally, but through text, we've worked out alot.
So, as it is looking right now, I may end up moving down to college with her. But, I will have no income, I may be stuck with a shitty gas station job for a year or so. She said that if we get back together, she wants me to go back to school, maybe a tech school. My current job is building guns, which is hardly a really widespread useful skill. Plus, the fucking Governor of Illinois is anti-gun and doing his best to take my job. So, unless i want a shit job for my life, I should go to school. It's a good idea and I think that it would be smart to do so.
She came home from school, which is about 5 hours away, and we talked alot. She says she has a fear of commitment but realizes it. She is going to school to get her Master's and is smart as hell (probably smarter than I am, honestly) and good looking.
Right now, I have only 850$ in TOTAL debt, once that's gone, I only have monthly living expenses.
I hate this area, but love my friends I have here. My family is pretty much non existant. I have tried to look at this from every angle, from the outside of emotions, but still have a very few but still some doubts.
It comes down to on the plus side, Im getting away from this Meth City, and living with this incredible girl and seeing the country, maybe the world. Living somewhere new and more exciting, and possibly getting an education for a decent job in the future. We share the same, really odd sense of humor, we both are really good with money and live a pretty frugal, but comfortable, lifestyle and we both are not comfortable with the idea of children, which most other girls I have met want.
On the negative, She has a fear of commitment and it kinda makes me nervous. I am leaving a job that can support me for no income at all. I have a medical condition that occasionally needs check ups to ensure I don't have possible cancer (which is incredibly unlikely, but still needs occasional attention). With no medical insurance, uhmmm.
What it comes down to is that I have always taken the safe route in life. Never taking much risks, because risks always pwn me eventually. But, living like that really doesn't reward anyone. So I'm pretty much sold on the idea of packing up and heading there, I figured I'd ask yous alls for some thoughts.
I am about out for the night, but I respect and will read answers whenever I get online. Even if you say "Stick in her ass" I guess i will consider it.
I posted on here about things going on with my girlfriend once before. Something new has come up, and I respect the BF2s community's intelligence (more so than alot of my IRL friends, actually) and wanted to get a few opinions. I have pretty much decided, but figure an oustide point of view would be inciteful. Here we go.
Ok, So I've dated this girl for about a year and a half, we rarely fought, and always talked our few fights out. There is very few things about her that I dislike, very minor things.
But recently, we broke up. We lived together almost a year, but she went to college. She wanted to move away from where we lived together, which , really is a crime filled, incredibly boring shithole. She also wants to travel alot. Maybe wants marriage, doesn't want kids, for a long time if ever.
We broke up because I was being an EMO filled negative minded turd. I realize that now. I made a few comments about how traveling costs money, and that I have a well paying, but not good, job that moving away from would be hard.
MY job pays $15 dollars an hour which for this rural area (shithole) is pretty good. Give you an idea, Rent is only $400 dollars a month.
Anyway, she assumed that I didn't want to leave the area or travel to far off places, her two biggest dreams. So she dumped me. But we have been talking through E-mails, and we both have a hard time communicating by talking verbally, but through text, we've worked out alot.
So, as it is looking right now, I may end up moving down to college with her. But, I will have no income, I may be stuck with a shitty gas station job for a year or so. She said that if we get back together, she wants me to go back to school, maybe a tech school. My current job is building guns, which is hardly a really widespread useful skill. Plus, the fucking Governor of Illinois is anti-gun and doing his best to take my job. So, unless i want a shit job for my life, I should go to school. It's a good idea and I think that it would be smart to do so.
She came home from school, which is about 5 hours away, and we talked alot. She says she has a fear of commitment but realizes it. She is going to school to get her Master's and is smart as hell (probably smarter than I am, honestly) and good looking.
Right now, I have only 850$ in TOTAL debt, once that's gone, I only have monthly living expenses.
I hate this area, but love my friends I have here. My family is pretty much non existant. I have tried to look at this from every angle, from the outside of emotions, but still have a very few but still some doubts.
It comes down to on the plus side, Im getting away from this Meth City, and living with this incredible girl and seeing the country, maybe the world. Living somewhere new and more exciting, and possibly getting an education for a decent job in the future. We share the same, really odd sense of humor, we both are really good with money and live a pretty frugal, but comfortable, lifestyle and we both are not comfortable with the idea of children, which most other girls I have met want.
On the negative, She has a fear of commitment and it kinda makes me nervous. I am leaving a job that can support me for no income at all. I have a medical condition that occasionally needs check ups to ensure I don't have possible cancer (which is incredibly unlikely, but still needs occasional attention). With no medical insurance, uhmmm.
What it comes down to is that I have always taken the safe route in life. Never taking much risks, because risks always pwn me eventually. But, living like that really doesn't reward anyone. So I'm pretty much sold on the idea of packing up and heading there, I figured I'd ask yous alls for some thoughts.
I am about out for the night, but I respect and will read answers whenever I get online. Even if you say "Stick in her ass" I guess i will consider it.